164.7 kilos is just terrible and I know it.
The highest weight I had been previously was 157.3 so I have gained all of it back and more. I went from 157.3 to 119.8 kgs and felt great and then life got in the way with kids and my mum getting older and sick and I just gave up on me.
When I lost my weight previously I was blogging and reading about other inspiring people and making sure by blogging I was keeping myself accountable. I need to do that again and keep myself going.
Why do I find it so hard? Why do I feel that having the food will make me happy and I should be able to have anything I want to eat and no one can be my boss. What a stupid reaction.
I want to do so many things like:
- Tie my shoes
- Put my own socks on
- Sitting in the chairs at mums dementia home and fit in it.
- Breathing properly when I walk instead of heavy breathing
- Going for long walks with hubby and not being in pain
- Trying new walking tracks
- Ride my bike on bike tracks and feel great
- Fit in my clothes
- Stop pulling my top down so I don't see my belly
- Wear a pretty dress and not be a tent
- Buy off the rack
We finally have time to do things my hubby and I and I want to not just sit watching tv or doing things sitting down. I want to experience life with my hubby
Weigh day is Sunday morning arghhhh
Wish me luck
LL
LL
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